They say when we are hung up over a failed situationship, we are not missing that person, but the person’s potential or the future we imagined with them.
Every time I hear this, I always tried recalling if I ever imagined a future with you.
The answer has always been no. Back then, you didn’t believe me either. I remember you kept telling me that I needed to squash whatever fantasy I might have been harbouring about us, and I kept telling you I’ve never imagined an us… but you never believed me.
It’s true, you know. I never had a reason to lie. And I never imagined us in a future.
But back then, what I wanted the most at that time was… you choosing me. I just wanted you to choose me. Fight for me. Love me, and to be honest with me, albeit even for a second.
That was what I was “harbouring” inside of me.
Not the potential of an “us" future.
But I have learnt that I needed to choose me. So I did. :)
